Last updated : June 28, 2015
They say that the most difficult task of our life is to understand ourselves. Yes I agree with them. And hence, finally after the completion of my schooling, I decided to put my feelings right over here and it will give me a fair chance to introspect and then connecting the dots of my past in order to know a lit bit about myself.
Wait! Wait! Wait!
I’m on a discovery and hence I have to begin from somewhere.
Better to take a step right from my INTRODUCTION.
So hi, I’m 18 years old young, charm, ex-introvert and a thoughtful person. I’m fond of spending a lot of time in my hobbies like computer programming, reading novels and magazines, writing etc. etc. Currently, I’m occupying about 706.5 cm^2 area of this earth.
I was born on 28th December 1996 yet I was mentioned into the official documents 3 months later. So from the beginning of my school life, every year, I celebrate my birthday on 28th of March. My family consist of four members with my hard working, ideological, an alumni of Indian Air Force and overall, my sweet father; my loving mother, who is meant to take care of all of us. She is a devotee of Rama, who daily performs her pray with her rosary for hours. And finally, my elder sister who loves to do shopping and a lot of shopping only.
My father grew up in a typical Indian countryside.
Born in 1968,
Lost his mother (and thus my grandma) at the age of 12,
Took responsibility to bring up my 3 younger uncles as at that time, my grandpa used to travel from one place to another in order to making a little bit of money.
Everyday, my daddy used to work really hard in order to complete his daily chores, bringing up his 3 brothers and finally, used to sit in front of lantern in order to burn the midnight oil for completing his daily school related homework.
But at his age of 17, destiny took a sudden turn and he was recruited into the defense services. There, he pursued his further studies – Aerospace engg, MA, BA, MBA (mktg.), a degree in hotel management (*Gold Medalist*) and fought for civil services exam.
Being the son of an air warrior, I have traveled all across the country.
My father (R) receiving his gold medal from Hon’ble Vice President of India, Shri M. Hamid Ansari
. 4th Convocation of VMOU, Kota (May 15, 2008) .
Oh sorry! Although I know that this section is related to me, yet I was talking about my father. ‘My father is my inspiration’.
If you’re curious about my life, then I wanna tell you that since my first standard, I used to stand first in my class. Then in my 11th grade, I stood 4th. But your class position doesn’t matter. It is the person that really matters! Throughout my school life, I was elected for ‘Class Monitor’ position.
. IIT JEE – Is it an exam or a hell? .
It was April 4 in the spring of 2013. Results were awaited. I was confident enough to score 10 CGPA in my 10th grade (and finally it happened!).
One of my science teacher during the provisional classes exclaimed,”Dileep!”
I said,”Yes sir!” I froze up.
He then asked me,”What is your plan ahead?”
I answered honestly,”Sir, studying science and maths along with computer science.”
He blurt out,” Is that your plan!!” I nodded.
“See, I know what you’re made for. Just begin to work hard for IIT JEE advance.” (Indian Institute of Technology – Joint Entrance Exam)
I told him within a single breath,”Sir, at the present, I’m confused about my entrances. But I’d like to spend these two years in science exhibitions, studying science books, reading novels, leading my house in debate competitions and learning computer programming.”
“Hmm. And then?”
“Then… Sir, whatever the best I will get on the basis of… “.
He interrupted me,”Listen Dileep, don’t plan to waste your most crucial two years. This is India! I know that you’d have a better career as an engineer. And you want to become an engineer na..”
“Good. And which is the best institution for pursuing your engineering?”
“I think (the society and then you made me to think)… IITs.”
“Definitely son. Then start now.”
And while shaking his head, her further advised me,” Don’t opt for computer science and such house leader positions. Take physical edu. and cramming a day before exam is enough. Don’t pay any attention on school exams in your 11th grade. Pay any artist for building the annual science project model. Study for JEE regularly. Join any good coaching institute here or go to Kota. Else here, do not go to school on Saturdays. Just understand a concept and try to apply it in various scenarios by solving a plenty of questions ranging from simple-to-hard JEE level. Compete hard. About 1.4 millions of students appear every year for 2 Tier JEE exam and only 9,000 students make it to IITs. You can sense the competition!!”
It really frightened me. And I began to prepare for JEE in order to secure my future. Scored well in my mock tests. But as the time passed, at the mid of 11th grade, I felt exhausted. I felt that ‘something was really missing from my life’. What is that? Why I’m preparing for JEE? Although I’m studying hard and scoring well, yet I’m not happy. Every night, while going straight to bed, I used to think about leaving the preparations but then a fear used to arise within my mind. Was it the fear of losing the ‘RAT RACE‘?
And finally, after a long fight with my forced thoughts and the society, I left it! I left it! Yes I did…
But it took me into a broad loneliness and for a year, I was doing nothing. Void. And as reaching to the end of 2014, I gained my enthusiasm again.
I’m not an IITian. And now I feel a good for this tag…
. Before 2012 .
Come again my dear! Sorry for taking you into that dark tunnel. So I’m a voracious reader and I love to write. I have a passion for computers and my real interest lies in the ‘Theoretical Physics’ . I love to understand a concept all by myself at first, and then I think a lot about the concerned concept and at last, I become eligible to appreciate that concept. I like to go beyond the textbooks and usually try out my leanings in the practical life (Like how I used to play with ‘vectors’ and used simple distance=speed x time formula back in my 6th grade for calculating the average separation between the light poles on National Highway while travelling in a car maintaining the uniform speed of 31.07 mph). Yet they had never added a score to my mark sheet 😦
. It’s easy:: Calculating average separation between the light poles on National Highway .
. Playing with vectors:: Verifying parallelogram law of vector addition by applying two perpendicular forces (|F1|≈|F2|) on a pencil. The resultant force is the vector sum of the two almost equal forces and hence, the pencil moves into the direction of the resultant .
. So sorry:: Opened my father’s old CDMA phone (never returned him!) and built a mini-rechargeable LED lamp .
. PENs:: Am I – am I really touching millions of Protons, Electrons and Neutrons (PENs) !!!
This is just a brief ( I think so!) and it should be as it is the beginning of my new discovery. Hope, you and I will find a lot about ourselves in this all new journey.
So just move along with me 🙂